$11 Tootsie Roll

Ok so im pretty much broke, i have a total of $0 for the rest of this month. And so today i was cleaning my room and opened up this container that i put all my spare change in. I was excited beucause i totally forgot about it. So i counted what i had, and it came out to $11. So i figured that could get me starbucks or a burger sometime this week so i was thrilled. So i hop in the "green machine" and go to safeway to see if they had one of those change exchange things so i could get some cash...but no.

So then i go all the way down to Trancas to check out Nob Hill because i knew that where im from, they usually have the change exchange things there. On my way i was praying forgiveness because i had totally rejected God all morning because of the things i had to get done. So im prayin that God would have his way today, and that he would humble my spirit and teach me to live a life of worship(that was my prayer objective for fasting also)

So 10 mins later, as im walking through the door at Nob Hill there is this man with a yellow and orange vest and holding a container that says "help the mentally challenged" or at least something close to that, as i walk by God spoke clear as day "give all you have." My heart sank, i kept walking and i was just like no, that was only me wanting to be generous. So im walking through the store looking for this change exchange machine and it isnt there. And the whole time God is like "give all you have."

So here i am stuck in Nob Hill, with my $11 in change and getting clear instruction from God to give all i have, and i am stuck on my own selfish ambitions. It was then i was like, ok here is God answering my prayer right in front of me and im rejecting him. So i humbled my spirit, walked out of Nob Hill and up to the man, looked him in the eye, and said "here ya go, hope this helps" gave him the change,gave him a smile, and walked away. I walked a couplle of steps and i heard him say "wait", i turn around and he hands me a tootsie roll, and says "thanks." I smiled, got into my car and drove home, with nothing but a tootsie roll.

I was questioning God on the way home why he would have me do that, i mean it wasnt for a church organization as far as i knew, it wasnt missions giving or tithe, and i dont even know how much of that money will actually go to the cause. And I just felt God say, "yes you dont know, but you DO know that I told you to give it."

Now i look back at the situation and totally Praise God, I prayed, He answered, i sacrificed, and now He stores my treasure in heaven, AND i got a tootsie roll as a bonus. lol. So God has called us to be faithful with the small before he can entrust with the big. Even if we cant see the purpose in it, God knows, and it is not our job to ask why, its our job to say "yes lord" and then do it with a servants heart.

After i got home i remembered this verse:
"If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. 6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. "
James 1: 5-7 (NLT)

What i got out of it was that God will give us wisdom if we ask for it, but once he gives us wisdom, we need to USE IT, not be divided by the things of this world or we are as unsettled as the sea. Just because we dont neccesarily agree with the wisdom God gives us when we ask, doesnt mean we dont have to do it. So be obedient, and take pride in your humbleness, it is an awesome feeling!

God is so good, sorry this is so long, but when God speaks, he SPEAKS.