And it all falls into place....

Ok so BIG NEWS.....yesterday i was in the office doing my Berean work when, i had that crazy gut feeling and felt that God wanted me to take a walk and pray. So i went outside and just started to talk to God, so after walking a while (into a field) God straight up spoke to me " Dont fear what i have called you to" and im like ok God, no big, i wont fear i know you'll be with me. But then God spoke again only this time.."Dont fear WHERE i've called you to" and im like GOD i dont even know where you've called me, how can i fear it!!

The first thing i thought was China, here lately ive been talking alot about China and how that could be a possibility, but God spoke to my heart again and revealed to me thats NOT where he wants me, i wanted to go to China because it was a trip that GP offered and was a possibility i could intern there next year...a semi-comfortable choice that i would be happy with. But God reminded me that i am not called to live a "comfortable" life but to put my faith in Him for the impossible.

If you've been keepin up with my blog you know ive been seeking God in where he wants me to serve next year. God doesnt usually speak to me this way but here are some things that ive come into contact with that have put a fire in my heart for the country of..............INDIA!!!

Almost one month ago after God showed me he wants me in the 10/40 window, i go 10/40 window.com and check it out. The first thing i see is a video of the church in India and how God is moving and how much faith the people have to worship in a restricted country.

Next comes the missions service in Winters,CA. We go do worship, hear an awesome message, and after go out to eat. There i meet a man from the church we were just at who asks me a few questions, then out of nowhere tells me this AWESOME experience he had on a missions trip to India for like an hour! About how God is moving in the young men and how they are starving for more training.

Then theres youth convention, and who do we come across...?? The Maddocks !! Missionaries to India! Me, Ang, and Sean got to talk to Jaylyn about there hopes and dreams for India. There passion and excitement for what God is doing and going to do kinda rubbed off on all of us as well. But still, i doubted God was speaking to me to go to India.

I guess now would be a good time to tell ya'll that discipling and equipping people is one of the things that God has strongly placed in my life. And another reason i doubted God wanted me in India was because the only missionaries and programs i knew in the country worked with Project Rescue. And since that just primarily dealt with sex trafficking i cancelled that out as Gods call on my life.........so i thought......

After talking with the Maddocks they gave me one of their prayer cards, later that night i looked at the prayer card and guess what it said...? Project Rescue, Teen Challenge, Discipleship Training and Evagelism!!!! I was pretty excited, but still doubted it was God trying to show me something.

The last little India moment was after youth convention, i went upstair to spend some time with John, so he's up there watchin tv, so i came up to find John o the couch watchin a commercial, so we chat for a lil, and when the show comes on that he was watching...it was a documentary on culture in Inda with something to do with the India Tiger population decreasing....but still a small little thing like that was still pointing to the country of India.

Finally after all those instances happened finally something kind of clicked in my mind...maybe God is showing me something. So i talked to Gina and Sarah about my whole situation(2 people that i could always pour my heart out to) and asked if this could possibly be God. They were helpful in just telling me to seek God about it through prayer and His word. So ....I did.

And that takes me back to the beginning of all this when God was speaking to me in the field during my Berean that morning. He reminded me of the diciples right after Jesus had washed their feet. Telling Him his plans and how he would leave and then return again. The disciples couldnt grasp what He was telling them, they continued to question Jesus about what he was doing. Then Jesus says soon i will stop speaking figureatively and speak plainly.....And soon the disciples finally understood what Jesus was saying...even after years of following Him they just barely understood.

Thats how i felt when God spoke to me....all this time he's been speaking to me and yet i was still crying out and questioning Him. And then finally i understood. He spoke to me plainly and placed my answer in India. What a relief to have a somewhere to work towards. Im not sure how but thats why im having faith that God's gonna take care of it. GOD IS SOOO GOOD!!!