On fire - Switchfoot

Tell you where you need to go
Tell you when you'll need to leave
Tell you what you need to know
Tell you who you need to be

But everything inside you knows
Says more than what you've heard
So much more than empty conversations
Filled with empty words

And you're on fire
When He's near you
You're on fire
When He speaks
You're on fire
Burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
Give me one more chance to see
Give me everything You are
Give me one more chance to be... (near You)

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

When I'm on fire
When You're near me
I'm on fire
When You speak
And I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries
these mysteries...

I'm standing on the edge of me [x3]
I'm standing on the edge

And I'm on fire
When You're near you
I'm on fire
When You speak
(Yea) I'm on fire
Burning at these mysteries...

When The Curtains Close

Who will I be when the lights go down
When the crowd is no more

Who will i be when the stage is clear
When I'm behind closed doors

Who will I be when the music fades
When the fire loses its brilliance

Who will I be when my faith is tested
When my heart faces resilliance

Will I stand will I fight
Will I run to win

Will I buckle will I crumble
Will I compromise again

The truth is, it's all so easy
To conform to the familiar, the average, the pleasing
God give me strength to break the mold
To write my own story and a story untold

Of someone who took a risk to kill the norm
Of someone who helped the hopeless through the storm

Taking on a life of integrity, service, and love
Entertaining angels from heaven high above

Needing you each day to bring strength to this heart
Thanking you for joy that comes with each start

My life is a song to you whom i sing
Composing in rythm with the everlasting King

My life a glass house for all to know
I will be that same man when the curtains close

Escaping Complacency

A few days ago i was in my prayer closet....(which has been my car lately) and i just started praying. The first thing i said was "God thank you for who you are" thats ususally how i open in prayer and has become a habit of mine. Its funny because right after that statement God really checked my spirit. Not like a convicting check, but more like a hey understand what what you're saying kind of check. So many times I say that phrase but do I really take into consideration who God is and why im thanking him for being that?

So me and God had a really nice chat on who he really is in my life. First i thanked him that he has been so good and merciful to me. Forgiving my past and preparing my future. Then i thanked him for being patient with me. For helping me up everytime i fall and for telling me things a million times over before i finally understand. I thanked Him for being a constant in my life. That no matter where i go or what i do he'll always be there with me. I thanked Him for being real to me and that he is more than a diety, he is a friend. I thanked him for the gifts, emotions, passions, dreams, and perfect plan he has for my life and i pray that i use everything to bring him glory and better his kingdom. I thanked him that i am nothing. My life has no meaning if i am not doing his will. I am nothing if he is not in me.

During this prayer time i realized two things. 1. not to become complacent in the way we pray, and 2. Really understand what we are praying and understand the full meaning of the words we say. This average prayer time in my car turned into the realization of who God really was, is , and will be in my life. Thank you God that you have not called me to live an average life, but a life above reproach and of constant refining.AMEN!

You are so intricate...yet so simple

"You search much deeper within, than way things appear, You're looking into my heart"

God thank you that you see my heart, my thoughts, passions, likes, dislikes, motives, and intentions. Thank you that i can rely on Your word and spirit to guide me. Thank you for the authority placed over me. Let me serve and obey them just as i would you, for you have given that authority to them.

God thank you for growth, as much as it hurts i thank you for it. A tree will not bare good fruit unless it is pruned, and so my life in you will not produce fruit unless you cut certain things in my life away.

God i stand on the words you've spoken to me, the words of truth, life, and peace. Etch them into my heart and help me do everything i can to prepare myself for when that time comes.

Thank you for love

Thank you for trust

Thank you fof the assurance i have in you

Yea!

And it all falls into place....

Ok so BIG NEWS.....yesterday i was in the office doing my Berean work when, i had that crazy gut feeling and felt that God wanted me to take a walk and pray. So i went outside and just started to talk to God, so after walking a while (into a field) God straight up spoke to me " Dont fear what i have called you to" and im like ok God, no big, i wont fear i know you'll be with me. But then God spoke again only this time.."Dont fear WHERE i've called you to" and im like GOD i dont even know where you've called me, how can i fear it!!

The first thing i thought was China, here lately ive been talking alot about China and how that could be a possibility, but God spoke to my heart again and revealed to me thats NOT where he wants me, i wanted to go to China because it was a trip that GP offered and was a possibility i could intern there next year...a semi-comfortable choice that i would be happy with. But God reminded me that i am not called to live a "comfortable" life but to put my faith in Him for the impossible.

If you've been keepin up with my blog you know ive been seeking God in where he wants me to serve next year. God doesnt usually speak to me this way but here are some things that ive come into contact with that have put a fire in my heart for the country of..............INDIA!!!

Almost one month ago after God showed me he wants me in the 10/40 window, i go 10/40 window.com and check it out. The first thing i see is a video of the church in India and how God is moving and how much faith the people have to worship in a restricted country.

Next comes the missions service in Winters,CA. We go do worship, hear an awesome message, and after go out to eat. There i meet a man from the church we were just at who asks me a few questions, then out of nowhere tells me this AWESOME experience he had on a missions trip to India for like an hour! About how God is moving in the young men and how they are starving for more training.

Then theres youth convention, and who do we come across...?? The Maddocks !! Missionaries to India! Me, Ang, and Sean got to talk to Jaylyn about there hopes and dreams for India. There passion and excitement for what God is doing and going to do kinda rubbed off on all of us as well. But still, i doubted God was speaking to me to go to India.

I guess now would be a good time to tell ya'll that discipling and equipping people is one of the things that God has strongly placed in my life. And another reason i doubted God wanted me in India was because the only missionaries and programs i knew in the country worked with Project Rescue. And since that just primarily dealt with sex trafficking i cancelled that out as Gods call on my life.........so i thought......

After talking with the Maddocks they gave me one of their prayer cards, later that night i looked at the prayer card and guess what it said...? Project Rescue, Teen Challenge, Discipleship Training and Evagelism!!!! I was pretty excited, but still doubted it was God trying to show me something.

The last little India moment was after youth convention, i went upstair to spend some time with John, so he's up there watchin tv, so i came up to find John o the couch watchin a commercial, so we chat for a lil, and when the show comes on that he was watching...it was a documentary on culture in Inda with something to do with the India Tiger population decreasing....but still a small little thing like that was still pointing to the country of India.

Finally after all those instances happened finally something kind of clicked in my mind...maybe God is showing me something. So i talked to Gina and Sarah about my whole situation(2 people that i could always pour my heart out to) and asked if this could possibly be God. They were helpful in just telling me to seek God about it through prayer and His word. So ....I did.

And that takes me back to the beginning of all this when God was speaking to me in the field during my Berean that morning. He reminded me of the diciples right after Jesus had washed their feet. Telling Him his plans and how he would leave and then return again. The disciples couldnt grasp what He was telling them, they continued to question Jesus about what he was doing. Then Jesus says soon i will stop speaking figureatively and speak plainly.....And soon the disciples finally understood what Jesus was saying...even after years of following Him they just barely understood.

Thats how i felt when God spoke to me....all this time he's been speaking to me and yet i was still crying out and questioning Him. And then finally i understood. He spoke to me plainly and placed my answer in India. What a relief to have a somewhere to work towards. Im not sure how but thats why im having faith that God's gonna take care of it. GOD IS SOOO GOOD!!!

2 Corinthians 6:4-10

4 In everything we do, we show that we are true ministers of God. We patiently endure troubles and hardships and calamities of every kind. 5 We have been beaten, been put in prison, faced angry mobs, worked to exhaustion, endured sleepless nights, and gone without food. 6 We prove ourselves by our purity, our understanding, our patience, our kindness, by the Holy Spirit within us, and by our sincere love. 7 We faithfully preach the truth. God’s power is working in us. We use the weapons of righteousness in the right hand for attack and the left hand for defense. 8 We serve God whether people honor us or despise us, whether they slander us or praise us. We are honest, but they call us impostors. 9 We are ignored, even though we are well known. We live close to death, but we are still alive. We have been beaten, but we have not been killed. 10 Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor, but we give spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything.

So true.....God help me live it.

This Race They Call Life....

So we kicked off the day with another 5k this morning, it was freezin and we were still a lil sore from our intense ballet training earlier this week (thanks Randa!lol) But we all were there and ready to run.

Running the 5k this time opened my eyes more to the spiritual aspect of running rather than the physical. Last time i was focused on my time and how well i could perform. This time I chose to run with a friend and practice encouragement, support, and accountability. Its funny because I think I was more encouraged by her than she was by me.We hardly even talked while we were running, but just the feeling of someone running by your side, knowing that you're running the same race, and going for the same goal makes you want to keep pushing forward all the more for that person. Being inspired and proud when they are running strong, and pushing and encouraging them when they want to slow down. Saying a word or two to lift their spirit when it gets hard, and joking around when its easy and downhill. Can you sense the message coming..?

Jesus is that person that runs by our side. He's right there to encourage us, support us, push us and keep us moving even when we are running uphill and we want to give up. He'll say the right words when we are down, and he will do everything He can to keep us moving, never stopping. Our goal this 5k was to not walk at any time during the entire race.... and me and Ang met that goal. With the support of eachother it was possible, and we pushed ourselves to the very end, and so it should be with our spiritual run with God.

God showed me today that He wants me to run the race, not walk, not trot, not jog. He want me to RUN. Even when the hills of sin come in my way, he wants me to run over them. When the mountains of circumstance are in my path, he wants me to run through them. When temptation comes my way he wants me to run from them. God wants me to keep that pace with His spirit running and conquering whatever comes my way. He is with me always, and I will never stop running because I know He won't stop either.

God i'll run with you wherever you take me, continue to condition my heart and lungs to speak your word. Stretch me in new ways to reach higher goals, and work out my spiritual muscle to bring strength and power to your people. God i'll run to win people for You. Have your way in this race they call life.

"I run the race for He who runs beside me, and for He that has already won"
-Me

All Of His Promises.......

Ever pray and pray about something, and then when God answers your prayer you freak out? Maybe im the first but I know ever since God has started to reveal His plan for me that I have been goin NUTS!!!

So earlier this year my prayer was God show me where you want me, God do what you will. And so this last week Gods been like 10/40, 10/40/ 10/40 India, China, Egypt, Indonesia, all these places where evangelism is restricted or prohibited. And my reaction has been pure joy, that is until i strayed away from His word for a couple days, got a lil' half-hearted in my prayers, and started organizing things in my own mind. THATS when i started freakin out. So I have been like why God!! Why do i feel this way, why am i stressin and flippin out over such an awesome thing.!!!???!!!

It seems obvious now, but once God started revealing His plan, I started implementing my own....yea bad idea. It seems so elementary, but why try to help God the maker and king of the universe...God help me understand you got it all under control.. I brought more trouble and concern into my answered prayer than God had ever intended. But ya know what> He loves me anyways and helped me through it.

On the drive home from work today i turned off the radio and just talked with God the whole time. Talked to Him just as if he were sittin in the passenger seat i told Him how i was feeling and asked what He wanted me to do. Clear as day He spoke to my heart, just reminding me of all the promises he has given me, all the words that have been spoken over me, and the direct passion He has placed in my heart.

Its funny because everything just kind of clicked, it wasnt a dramatic revelation or anything, but everything just seemed to make sense again. God speaks to me a lil different than most, but Im pretty sure His words were "Chill Out! dang bro i give you what you want and then you freak out on me. I got your back, just relax already!LOL God speaks in a way i can understand ok...

So now...like right now right now...im good. God has reminded me of the great things already sealed in my life, and has me waiting in anticipation of when he says GO. Im so excited!!!

"All of Your promises wont let go of me"

10/40

Ok so ive been posting some poetry stuff for the past few days, so I thought i'd give that a break and just share what God is doin in my life.

So if you have been keepin up with my blog, you know that ive been prayin and seeking God in where I should go in this Ginormous world! So yesterday in my Berean class, we opened up talking about how God created man to naturally long for higher power. We talked about how there are people in this world that have NEVER heard the name of Jesus once but yet they search and try to find purpose and put the pieces together.

So i kinda got stuck on that thought for a while and then the 10/40 window came to mind. The 10/40 window is an area of land stretching from N. Africa all the way across to east China, (check the longitude and latitude for more accuracy) and the percentage of people who havent heard the name of christ in that area alone is like 94% Isnt that crazy!!!So i was thinking....wow what if i could devote my life to the people of that area, moving from city to city, nation to nation, raising up leaders and planting leaders in those countries to disciple others to do the same. The hunger for God is there in the 10/40, but the laborers to meet that need is few. The 10/40 is the most unevagelized area in the world, and contains billions of people.So why is it neglected? Because evagelism is restricted and prohibited in almost all of the 10/40. People dont want to take a risk, people dont want to be "uncomfortable." God said to go to ALL the nations, he didnt say go to the ones you feel most comfortable with. So im praying for this generation to rise up and take a risk, to live on the edge, to push the limit and continue to spread Gods word to the world.

So all this was goin on in my head for a good 20 mins during Berean last nite, and then today. I was lookin for some info on the 1040 and came across this website that showed some ministry going on in India (which is part of the 1040) and guess what.......there were missionaries showing the people who Jesus was, explaining salvation, teaching them how to pray, worshipingin the streets, and basically raising up Indian leaders, to lead their own people to live a life victoriously through christ!.

I have to admit that the tears were rollin as i was watchin the video, because that video was a perfect example of what i felt needed to be done, and what God wants me to do, ...Here these people are in a Muslim country openly worshiping out in the street lifting their hands, clapping, praying for healing, speaking in authority, and just plain rejoicing because of their new found hope through Jesus.

But how many more are still out there that havent heard, how many are longing for something more. I can only pray that God would make my path straight, and direct my every step in this whole situation.That he would give me his blessing if this is his will for my life, im so excited to see that God is beginning to reveal something greater than i could ever imagine. Keep me in yout prayers.

Timeless

Time has no meaning, age is nothing in His eyes
For when He called you, He saw your heart
And heard the beauty of its cry.

It was then He embraced you, and shared His heart with yours
He gave you a passion, a desire, a dream
He never questioned your ability, For He knew that through Him, you could do all things

Holding you close, He carried you from your past
Taking your first steps, you reached for His hand

Walking through the pain of being refined
It strengthened you, to run by His side
With every tear there was meaning
With every struggle there was purpose
With every mountain there was teaching
And every valley brought service

The Potter rejoices, at His creation
For He knows it is flawless, and will reach the nations

Molding and shaping, all passing through His hands
He knew the time, you would impact this land

So take heart, and take His word
Do all you can to stand, and stand firm

Have faith in every word He says
For words of Life, erase words of death

Put on your armor, set the captives free
Riding in victory along side your King.

Bury Me

When I surrendered

You took me captive

When I layed down my life

You gave me it

When I said Yes

You said Go

When I fell apart

You picked up the pieces

When I was weak

You used me

When I was strong

You humbled me

When I neglected You

You longed for Me

When I cried

You cried

When I loved

You loved greater

When I obeyed

You were proud

When I saw a sinful life

You saw potential

When i pray

You stand beside me

When i walk

You prepare my next step

When I run

You move mountains

When i fall

Your hand is outstretched

When I say I can't

You say have faith

When i am confused

You take me above

When i accepted You as Lord

You buried who i was

When I followed You as Lord

You made me all that I am

When I surrendered

You took me captive

My Little Secret

Today in prayer something was brought up that really hit home for me personally. Why do i treat my salvation, my relationship w/ Christ like a big secret?

I mean i love my God, and i love His mercy, and His grace, and His awesome plan for MY life, but its really selfish for me not to share my faith with the unsaved around me. God brought to mind my myspace. And after Ang brought up the subject, God just kinda spoke silently and said " why dont you have your intern blog on your myspace?" And my first reaction was like" heck no, i dont want all my old friends from school and home to read all my spiritual stuff."

Im surprised God didnt smite me then and there, what a stupid remark...especially to the One that says go to ALL nations and spread the good news to ALL people.

How prideful, how selfish. How many people could i have effected, how many saved, how many helped if i would of just got over my own selfhish ambition. I'll never know.

But ya know what? God is faithful, and He gave me the strength to do it anyways. Because you know what im learning.....
....Ministry is, and will be my life until the day i die!!

So i need to crucify myself with Christ, cowboy up, and get used to it!! Because the rest of my life will be focused on winning people to Gods kingdom!!

God teach me to be faithful with the small tasks you give me now, so that i may be faithful with the big ones later. All my dreams and passions are in your hands, i release all that i am to you, my strengths and weaknesses.
Refine Me, Guide Me, Use Me

The Secret's Out.....
Dont Go Witness
Witness As You Go!

Moving For The Sake Of Motion

I can see my breath tonite
Reminding me im still breathing

Its funny how you forget the small things
And emotions and words start fleeting

I am my own
What a misconception

I am nothing
Holy Spirit my only infection

I shed this skin
And clothe in His glory

Because my pages are blank
And would rather live according to His story

Understand I am just a visitor
I'm not here for long

I'll be content if I touch one life
Or only sing one song

But God wait just one more day
There's so much to be done

The battle is raging
And yet the war is already won

So give me another minute
an hour or year

Just long enough to send a prayer
to rid this world of hate and fear

Reign in me
And reign alone

So that I may reap the harvest
From the many seeds sewn

But for now you have me here
Hands tied and mouth closed

For what reason i cannot express
Only you can know

So I pray without ceasing, and with no notion
God help move for the sake of motion

$11 Tootsie Roll

Ok so im pretty much broke, i have a total of $0 for the rest of this month. And so today i was cleaning my room and opened up this container that i put all my spare change in. I was excited beucause i totally forgot about it. So i counted what i had, and it came out to $11. So i figured that could get me starbucks or a burger sometime this week so i was thrilled. So i hop in the "green machine" and go to safeway to see if they had one of those change exchange things so i could get some cash...but no.

So then i go all the way down to Trancas to check out Nob Hill because i knew that where im from, they usually have the change exchange things there. On my way i was praying forgiveness because i had totally rejected God all morning because of the things i had to get done. So im prayin that God would have his way today, and that he would humble my spirit and teach me to live a life of worship(that was my prayer objective for fasting also)

So 10 mins later, as im walking through the door at Nob Hill there is this man with a yellow and orange vest and holding a container that says "help the mentally challenged" or at least something close to that, as i walk by God spoke clear as day "give all you have." My heart sank, i kept walking and i was just like no, that was only me wanting to be generous. So im walking through the store looking for this change exchange machine and it isnt there. And the whole time God is like "give all you have."

So here i am stuck in Nob Hill, with my $11 in change and getting clear instruction from God to give all i have, and i am stuck on my own selfish ambitions. It was then i was like, ok here is God answering my prayer right in front of me and im rejecting him. So i humbled my spirit, walked out of Nob Hill and up to the man, looked him in the eye, and said "here ya go, hope this helps" gave him the change,gave him a smile, and walked away. I walked a couplle of steps and i heard him say "wait", i turn around and he hands me a tootsie roll, and says "thanks." I smiled, got into my car and drove home, with nothing but a tootsie roll.

I was questioning God on the way home why he would have me do that, i mean it wasnt for a church organization as far as i knew, it wasnt missions giving or tithe, and i dont even know how much of that money will actually go to the cause. And I just felt God say, "yes you dont know, but you DO know that I told you to give it."

Now i look back at the situation and totally Praise God, I prayed, He answered, i sacrificed, and now He stores my treasure in heaven, AND i got a tootsie roll as a bonus. lol. So God has called us to be faithful with the small before he can entrust with the big. Even if we cant see the purpose in it, God knows, and it is not our job to ask why, its our job to say "yes lord" and then do it with a servants heart.

After i got home i remembered this verse:
"If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. 6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. "
James 1: 5-7 (NLT)

What i got out of it was that God will give us wisdom if we ask for it, but once he gives us wisdom, we need to USE IT, not be divided by the things of this world or we are as unsettled as the sea. Just because we dont neccesarily agree with the wisdom God gives us when we ask, doesnt mean we dont have to do it. So be obedient, and take pride in your humbleness, it is an awesome feeling!

God is so good, sorry this is so long, but when God speaks, he SPEAKS.

It is Finished

So we finished our fast tonite!! Bee-ah Bee-ah!! Yea forgive my gangsterness lol. Im just so happy we got to eat. We broke our fast with tacos, rice, soup, chips n' salsa, cookies, and my personal fav. cheese and crackers..i was craving those soo bad i felt like a pregnant woman lol But God has done so many things through this fast, by just rejecting my flesh i feel so much power over my body and like Peter said "make it my slave." And just the confidence he has given me in that he has me in his hands, guiding and going before me everyday. This was my first extended fast ever and its definitely not gonna be my last, it was such an amazing experience running of the energy and strength of God, not the nourishment of food.

"The Joy of the Lord is my strength"

Today was amazing, and so is everyday when you have awesome prayer times in the morning. I showed up for prayer around 6 this morning and didn't stop until about 9. God totally filled me with his joy. All day i was just in an awesome mood, not mourning because i can't eat, but praising God because of his faithfulness to change things in my life, and reveal His plans for me. During this time of fasting I pray that God would humble me, and help me live a lifestyle of worship, and also just to guide my every move. I pray that my heart would overflow into action and pursue His will in all I do. I'm lovin how my body is upset because the lack of food, and my spirit is thriving because God the only food it needs. God is good, all the time.

Crazy Awesome God

Man its crazy to look back at my day and just see the God centered craziness that goes on between 5:30 this morning and now. From reg. Prayer to staff prayer, life of Christ essays to drama practice, then prayer again and today we started our 3 day fast. I am so stoked to see what God is going to do in my life, and in the team's life.

God has been speaking some crazy stuff to me lately; like seek him first in all I do and all things will be added unto me. And then about how he is gonna tie up all my passions(youth,worship,missions) and just use them in a wicked awesome way. Then out of nowhere he is speaking to me about marriage and how it is so important that I understand that it is about trust, honesty, unity, and pure love. and how God is going to use my marriage for His glory. Yea I know...Pretty random, and to top it off I got asked if I wanted to work on the marriage "pass it on" with the rest of the Berean group, and God is totally speaking to me there too. So yea, I think that my wife finally started prayin for me or something because God obviously is preparing me. Who knows when or how, but either way God is doin something in that area of my life.

But I think that this also ties in with the "seek him first"thing. I know that in order for me to achieve all the great things God is preparing for me, I need to seek him first AND THEN all will be added. God doesn't call us to seek your wife and you will find her, or seek your ministry and it will happen, he calls us to SEEK HIM, duh the all knowing all powerful God, its so stupid how I as man try to help God with my life, when in fact, he's had it all planned since the beginning of time. I SURRENDER!

God is just up to some awesome crazy things right now, and that's exactly what I've been praying for, for him to make me uncomfortable and show me how to worship him in lifestyle, for him to break my heart for the lost and go when he says go, for me to push the limit in everything I do, and above all, just to fall in a deeper love with Him. I'll try to keep a day to day blog on what God is doin during our time of fasting.Sorry this is so long but when God speaks i gotta type..lol I'll keep ya posted!

Live to serve...

So this last weekend all the interns went up to Sacramento to help with the Lay Leadership Conference at Capital Christian Center. We got to serve with a bunch of Master Commissions and pretty much did everything from serving in break-out sessions to picking up trash. We also put up our Global Passion to spread the word.

Since it was a two day conference, and Angies parents live close by...they opened up their home to ALL of us interns! They blessed us soooo much, giving us a place to stay, AWESOME food to eat, and just lettin us be a part of the familiy for the weekend. Angies mom (Momma Neece) has got to be the sweetest, most hospitable woman i have ever met. She definitely made me feel loved and at home. Then theres Angie's dad (Papa Steve) awesome guy, he loves music, he loves God, so yea i pretty much love him. He's also a real easy going guy and just easy to talk to. Then theres lil Anthony(Angies lil bro). LOVE THAT KID....i miss havin my lil bros around, so he definitely was a blessing, just listening and playin wtih him was a blast..So pretty much to sum it all up, stayin at the Cox home this weekend was definitely the closest ive felt to home since i came here to Global Passion. God is gonna bless that family sooo much....

Matthew 25: 34-40 (NLT)

" Then the king will say to those on his right, come you are who blessed by my father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the creation of the world. For i was hungry and you fed me, i was thirsty and you gave me a drink, i was a stranger and you invited me into your home, i was naked and you clothed me. I was sick and you cared for me, i was in prison and you visited me. Then these righteous ones will reply "lord when did we ever see you hungry and feed you? Or thirsty and give you somehting to drink? Or a stranger and show you hospitality? Or naked and gave you clothing? When did we ever see you sick or in prisson and visited you?" And the King will say "I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these, my brother and sister, you are doing it to me."

I think the theme for this last weekend was servanthood, and i need to learn how to make it a lifestyle. We served at the conference and we were served by the Cox family. Jesus honors and loves when we serve, because that's what he came down to.

Content

Ok so i know God wants me use my spiritual gift of faith, minister in ways of worship and youth, and that he's called me to have a heart for missions. But where on earth does he want me to do all this stuff....you're guess is as good as mine. I really feel in my spirit that im supposed to be somewhere crazy, where i'll be pushed to my limits, and i am so excited for that. But ive been praying alot about the "where" part, and God is being pretty quiet about it. He just says to seek him first..and thats so true, but such a hard pill to swallow...especially in a " i want it now" kinda mentality. But im content, God's been showing me so many things on top of that also, he is always faithful to pick me up and just let me feel his love and comfort in knowing that he has me exactly where he wants me, and eventually he'll reveal somewhere else he wants me to go, and so on, i will always say yes when he says go.

Goodbye.....Hello

I arrived in Napa, CA on Sept. 5 2006, entering in to the FUEL intern program through Global Passion Ministries. I didn't know what to expect, all i knew was that this is where God wanted me to be, and this was the next step to what He has for me. Saying goodbye to my family was hard, but it's funny how you have a spirit of contentment because you know it's a "God thing." I met my new host home family upon arrival. They are members of Hillside Christian Center (the church Global Passion is based at) and have opened up their home to me, and for the next 11 months i will be like a seregate son to them. They live in an AWESOME house(like most houses in Napa), iv'e got my own bedroom that is perfect, all i really needed was a bed and a stereo, but the comfortable sofa and flat screen in my room was a nice addition. My bathroom is too big for a guy like me, but I can't complain about the jacuzzi bathtub either. I'm not trying to be prideful or anything, but I just think it's so cool the way God works. All this great stuff is totally different from what I'm used to back home. It just goes to show that God will take care of you wherever you are, especially when you are in the middle of doing his will.